We would like to introduce

Little Eleanor.
I kept getting a little girl vibe, but I didn't want to read too much into it, because I felt the same way with Jonah.











I'm excited. I know I said I really wanted another boy, but for the last week or so, I have really been thinking about how much fun it would be to have a girl. And just because it's not a brother, doesn't mean Jonah still can't have a buddy to play with. I can't wait to meet her. I hope she looks just like me, because Jonah looks just like Derek. And I want a mini-me.

Love you little girl. I hope the time passes quick so I can see you soon. We're all excited to meet you.

Update

It has been far too long since I've written anything. Here's the happs right now:

I am now 4 months (17 weeks) along. Went to the midwife just yesterday and heard the heartbeat, again. Every time I go in, I almost can't believe it. It's still in there, growing good, and it always makes me smile. I'm finally starting to show, just a little and am annoyingly in between normal pants and maternity. So since the weather has been gorgeous, I've been wearing plenty of elastic waistband skirt.

I keep being asked by everyone if I know what it is yet, but I won't find out for another month. My preference, which I also keep getting asked, is another little boy. Of course, I'll be happy with whatever, boy or girl. But if they're gonna ask, I'm gonna give my opinion.

It seems to be going by so fast. I can't believe I'm already 4 months along. Only 5 more to go. I really haven't taken any progress pictures yet, so hopefully next time I'll have a belly picture and not long after an ultrasound picture. Wish me luck!

Baby boy!

Daddy took Jonah to breakfast this morning with grandpa and I'm supposed to be sleeping in, but I couldn't. So here's a birthday tribute post.

Happy Birthday, Jonah! You are 2 years old today! Here you are on the day you were born.

I can't believe how long ago that feels. You had the most beautiful dark hair. And your daddy documented everything they did in the hospital. And you can just hear the love in his voice whenever he speaks. And not too long after you turned into the toe-headed little boy you are today.

Here you are at just a year



And this is you today


We love you always and forever. I hope you have a good birthday! Love you sweet boy.

Relive

I think the best thing about having kids of your own, is being able to relive those things that fascinated you as a kid and to be able to share in their excitement. Jonah see's a train and says "there it goes!". He sees a horse and says "horse" and does the sign. So you get involved and you point out all these cool things to them that they get excited about! I mean, I say cool things, but they're actually pretty ordinary. Things you see everyday and haven't thought much about in years. But their joy and innocence and excitement just rubs off on you and you get to do it all over again. It's pretty incredible. And it's one of the reasons that this is the best job in the world.

Plans

That's not pee on the stick. That's the water droplets from washing the pee off.
Yes, the rumors are true. I am pregnant. (Yeah, I know, everyone always talks about me and what's going on in my life). Riglet number 2 is on the way. And this time around I'm doing it right. When I say right, I just mean for me. Home delivery, midwife. A real homebirth one this time, not a CNM. Malpractice doesn't allow them to do homebirths. Yes, I'm one of those. I am educating myself more this time too. I think every woman who plans on getting pregnant and having a baby should educate herself. Read up on it herself, along with getting information from your doctor. This is the most intense, changing experience your body will ever go through. You read reviews and do research when buying a car, why not when having a baby? I'm borrowing some fantastic books right now from a friend all about Creating Your Own Birth Plan and the pro's and con's of interventions in birth. (that books actually mostly biased toward homebirth and against unnecessary interventions). But the most important thing is for the woman to be able to decide what is going to work best for her and her baby. To educate herself and be able to decide that way. This homebirth thing is new for me too and I'm excited to see and experience the differences after having a hospital birth. I'll keep you all in the loop and up-to-date too. Yay for new experiences!

Strange dreams

I had the oddest dream last night. I had a dream that we had our baby, but it was like the size of my palm, but completely healthy. And our birthing center place was this room above a convenience store/sleazy diner in somewhere like Canada. And Derek and I were all on our own, no midwife, nothing. But the doctor (I'm not even using a doctor) came later, after we had showered, down the street, in some department store and had to walk back to our room in our towels. Which he was shocked at! And he treated the employees/waitresses like his nurses. Maybe they were. I don't know. But it was strange and interesting. But most of my dreams have been lately. I've had another dream a few times now, where I'm back in band and choir singing and playing my baritone. And I always wake up very happy.

I guess this is me announcing. Yes, we are pregnant. I am almost 12 weeks, so just about out of the 1st trimester. Can I use it as my excuse for totally slacking on my 30x30? I'm just not feeling it right now. I even tried to choose loose, comfy, concealing clothing. Oh well. I'll be doing it for awhile. Or I'll just quit. Depends on when I'll have to start wearing maternity. We'll see.

Lazy remixing

I swear I've been dressing up almost everyday, I just keep forgetting to document it. Looks like I'll be doing this for a lot longer than expected. I'm not even going to number these entries.

February 4th, 2011

Cardigan: Target 2008; Top: Charlotte Russe 2010; Pants: ON 2010; Shoes: Target 2008

February 5th, 2011

Button-Up: Forever 21 2010; Top: Hand-me-down; Pants: ON 2010; Shoes: Blowfish 2010

February 8th, 2011

Cardigan: Kohls 2010; Top: Gap 2010; Pants: ON 2010; Shoes: Target 2010

February 13th, 2011

Cardigan: AE 2009; Dress: Hand-me-down; Tights: Target 2011; Shoes: Target 2010