Passions

I was thinking last night while trying to get some sleep and unsuccessfully counting sheep, "what am I passionate about?" Derek and I had this same conversation just a few days prior, which is probably why it was fresh in my mind.

The conclusion I've come to is that I am passionate about doing the best by my family. Whether it's the way my children come into this world, or making delicious meals that we all enjoy (tonight was biscuits and gravy),
This is just a stock photo I found through google. I forgot to take a photo of my own meal tonight, but I can tell you it was delicious
or learning skills that will help around the house (right now it's sewing). These are good answers to me. There is nothing wrong with aspiring to be a good wife, mother, and all that comes with that. Teacher, chef, housekeeper, clown, singer, public speaker, designer, etc. My passions inspire me. To be better, to try harder. I have quite a role to live up to. I have the most precious cargo entrusted to me. Our Heavenly Father's children. And he wants them back someday, so I have to do my best to make sure they get there. Wish me luck.

Discovered...

This is how I've found Jonah the last few nights when I go to check on him before going to bed.


Last night in fact he was wedged up against the door and I couldn't get in. It's a funny little surprise.

Anxious: The Sequel

I just thought I should mention, that I'm not just excited about the decorating and prep process of this baby, although to have that in order and done is a huge comfort. I'm just excited for the challenge of another baby. I'm so used to toddler Jonah now that I sometimes think I won't know what to do with an infant again. I'm excited for the challenge of a baby of a different gender. For trying cloth diapers this time. I'm excited for the challenge of having care over 2 babies, instead of just the one. Figuring out the kinks and figuring out the balance. I'm excited to start this baby on a more regular routine early on, which I didn't do with Jonah.

I know there's a lot more to a new baby than cute clothes, decorating a nursery, and baby showers. And I am ANXIOUS and excited for every aspect of it.

Anxious

I know I'm just shy of 6 months, but I cannot wait to meet this little girl inside of me. My nesting has been going crazy, so Derek and I have been cleaning and organizing, having a yard sale, dropping lots of things at the DI, and listing things on KSL and Craigslist. Too bad we have to wait to paint until grandma can take Jonah for the day. Found the best color. It's almost like lime sherbet. That was one of my favorite parts of being pregnant with Jonah was making the room his. It is the only time I have painted in my home since moving here 3 years ago. I want to paint EVERYTHING! but you can only do so much at a time. And since we've had to change rooms around to make space for 2 babies, I get to do it all over again. I've been getting books from the library, looking at blogs (especially this one) for inspiration.

I want to plan baby showers (which is allowed if your baby is a different gender), buy cloth diapers, get cute little girls clothes, all that. I've been looking for crochet patterns for bonnets and booties. I still have 17 weeks left to go and I just hope it goes by fast, because little girl, I can't wait to meet you.

But, on a good note, I'm happy to have the time to spend with Jonah before he is no longer an only child. He needs as much love as I can possibly give him.