Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Just get it over with!
I am starting to feel frustrated and discouraged the more this pregnancy goes on. I know I still technically have a week left, but there's all these signs that it's progressing and things are moving on, and everyone's saying "oh you could go at any time" and I don't. And every day I come into work it's "you're still here?". Yeah, thanks for reminding me. I know I'm just getting impatient and anxious and there's nothing to worry about, but I think I feel like I may be getting ready to have my baby and every morning I wake up, still pregnant, no water broken on the bed and I just get angry. And then sad. It's some weird depressive cycle, and I know it makes no sense, but it's just how I feel. I have everything I can possibly get ready, ready. But I guess he's not ready yet. And Derek is feeling bad about my frustration and it's not his fault. And then I feel even worse. Oh boy